Day 3 - Your views on drugs & Alcohol

An interesting one for Day 3. Especially considering what a mess I am today, and how much I feel like just getting drunk (how apt!). I dropped The Boy off to work this morning - he flies out tomorrow morning, but he is spending the night with his parents so I don't get to se him. He said he is terrible at goodbyes.  I stupidly blurted out my feelings when I dropped him off and it didn't get much of a response. So I am feeling a bit like Carrie in that episode of SATC when she tells Big she loves him. Crap:(

On a bright note I do have an interview next week.

Anyway - onto the topic at hand. I love alcohol - more of a wine drinker these days. I still struggle to keep my intake down, I am not great at stopping at one. And I tend to 'binge drink'. Not have anything on weekdays and then go out on a friday night and drink a whole bottle. I think everyone I know drinks like this!

Ever since I became unemployed (3 days!) I must admit I have felt bored and that is making me want to drink at night. I am a bit of a wine snob - I don't do goon. I love red and white equally but hate champagne.

And drugs?  I came of age in the 90s, and back in my early clubbing days we took Es like most other club goers I knew. I dated a few ravers, so I certainly partook (I don't think I could have tolerated the music if I hadn't). That kind of all stopped quite a few years back, when I just got too old for that shit. It doesn't bother me if others do though - personal choice and all that, as long as you are aware of the risks more power to you. I would rather go the wine these days!

Day Two - Where You would like to be in 10 years

The simple answer to where I want to be in ten years - is traveling. The big love of my life has always been travel, and I haven't done as much as I would like. No South America, Africa or mainland Europe yet. I have already made plans to spend my 40th in the Greek Islands ala Shirley Valentine (only 3.5 years away - eep!)

I just need a travel companion - the two things that stop me from traveling as much as I would like (part from cash!) are a companion and leave...

Moving on in May - Day One!

I need to get back into blogging (particularly now I am momentarily unemployed!), so I am taking up this challenge courtesy of the lovely Teacup Grunge:). So here we go with Day 1!

DAY ONE: Your current relationship....

Well, I have been seeing The Boy for nearly three months now - we met at the Silent Disco:) I am completely head over heels for him, and really, what's not to love - he's gorgeous, funny, smart and talented. I love that he is musical (a guitarist), and since we have been seeing each other I have gotten out and seen so many local gigs. And I do love watching him on stage - so sexy!

But....I still have no idea of what we are - or to use a term from the tv show Awkward, we need to DTR (define the relationship). I would love to be his girlfriend of course, I feel like I am, I am just too chicken to ask!

Anyways, he does make me really happy and I feel super lucky to have met him, particularly after some terrible relationships over the years (although you don't get to be 36 without your heart being somewhat battered and bruised).

Last Week

Today I hand in my resignation for the end of the week...I am super sad and a whole lot frightened of what is next to come. This has been such a huge blow to my confidence, not sure how long it will take me to recover...

At least I had a decent weekend, with kitties and The Boy.

My friends two gorgeous burmese - see if you can spot both of them:)

70s night

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Life goes on:)

Just an update - thanks everyone for the well wishes, much appreciated! I am trying to be as positive as possible, and think about how good it will be to get away from a toxic environment. It's just the transition phase that scares me!

This weekend I will start madly ebaying, in an attempt to raise a few extra weeks breathing space in terms of rent.

In the meantime I am just trying to get through each day, and leaning on my friends/parents and the Boy to help me through the tough times. And making sure i get some couch time with foxtel on and the heating cranked (at least I have just paid this quarter's power bill!).

Above is a photo of me and a friend at Little Miss Mexico:) I haven't really taken any outfit photos recently, not been too up for creative outfits. I have started back at the gym this morning though. I have gained 5 kilos since January - whoops! The Fringe/Overseas Trip + New Boy = some major fatness gains .

Days are Ending

Sorry for my absence the past few weeks. After I got back from Malaysia it has been a bit crazy...

The crappy news is that I will be unemployed in two weeks. I was dealt this blow on Monday and I have been at a low ebb all week. I am trying to be positive, considering all the stress and drama with my boss over the past months, in a way I am kind of thankful it is ending. But then I am going to be financially in a bad place until I can secure something else.

Also I guess there is the blow to my confidence of having a boss unhappy with my work, when I have been slogging my guts out  and trying my best. But I guess in life there will always be people you don't get along with and cannot work with!

In brighter news, I am totally in love which is amazing:)

Wine festival

Needless to say we didn't....

Alien themed party in Victor - made a paper mache alien head and painted him in glow in the dark paint

Everyone got creative

And we made helium balloon chains

My cats missed me

Casual day

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Eggs for Everyone

I cannot believe Easter is already over. The days are going far too quickly....I spent my weekend being completely up and down. Whoever said that falling in love was easy was a big fat liar. There may be some incredibly 'up' moments, but a lot of it is anxiety and fear. Maybe that's just me? I dislike not knowing where I stand, so fearful that at any moment it could end. Clearly I need to work on that.

I also need to get back into being disciplined about going to the gym - True Grit coming up soon!!

Work feast

Lunch of champions

Transporting smelly rugs - my car still smells

Visited my dog at mum's house

Going out Easter sunday

Should not have had so much to drink

Dorothy Perkins dress on Tuesday

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